kicked out of church??

so as the years progressed Jeffrey became a huge handful ,police calls ,fights arguments, anger and so many tears for the first time in my life i cried alot .The first melt down being a mothers day as i went to the park to just get away and sat and cried for an hour .Behind my back gary gave in ,I just could not understand what happened. I had a grandchild born and put up for adoption..life was falling apart .God where are you..Did you forget about me?
   At one point i found myself wanting to give my son poison just to ease all the trouble.I immediately called focus on the family for help,because we were a house divided..They sent me info prayed with me and definately intervened ..We decided to go on vacation to get away and I sat by a pool in lancaster pennsylvania  trying to compose myself..meantime at home jeff was making very bad choices. A letter had come from our church of 13 years telling us we were no longer welcome..kicked out of church .really??