god heals ..in his time

time heals even a church divided ... God spoke NOW Im ready to bring them to you..you will know and understand their pain because you have now experienced hurt but I want you to see the other side,your son has hurt you and I have allowed it...so you can help others  proverbs 31:8-9 SPEAK UP FOR THOSE WHO CANNOT SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES.FOR THE RIGHTS OF THE DESTITUTE  SPEAK AND JUDGE FAIRLY DEFEND THE RIGHTS OF THE POOR AND THE NEEDY.....i had no idea where i was going but i was ready i was stronger..
                                                Then they came to the door..first the developmentally disabled.. our first houseguests ..then the infirm and elderly 12-14 of them at diffrent times .42 central st was in constant motion. my mother was with me a year I cherished that time ,it was all I had of her sober my whole life .I needed that. Then she was gone .more pain more inability to understand more time needed to heal.

kicked out of church??

so as the years progressed Jeffrey became a huge handful ,police calls ,fights arguments, anger and so many tears for the first time in my life i cried alot .The first melt down being a mothers day as i went to the park to just get away and sat and cried for an hour .Behind my back gary gave in ,I just could not understand what happened. I had a grandchild born and put up for adoption..life was falling apart .God where are you..Did you forget about me?
   At one point i found myself wanting to give my son poison just to ease all the trouble.I immediately called focus on the family for help,because we were a house divided..They sent me info prayed with me and definately intervened ..We decided to go on vacation to get away and I sat by a pool in lancaster pennsylvania  trying to compose myself..meantime at home jeff was making very bad choices. A letter had come from our church of 13 years telling us we were no longer welcome..kicked out of church .really??

i quit church.

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Our life was going ok .I was involved very much in the assembly of god church teaching childrens church,doing childrens programs ,vbs  very involved,at church sundays and wednesdays..then  it came ..the 13  year old son saying why do I have to go to church every sunday while dad stays in bed? you know I heard that so many times  and one sunday i replied youre right!I told gary I quit Im not going to church for a month if you want your children there, you go! And he did .. and that was the beginning  of church going for gary.It was tough taking that month off ,and I dont ever suggest you do this.Now as Kieth Green said going to church doesnt make you a christian,any more than going to Mcdonalds makes you a hamburger.But its a start.Life behind the scenes still wasnt good ,better than it had been  but there was alot of problems..the biggest one was a son who loved to divide and conquer ,and a husband whos father died while he was a teenager trying to make up for what he missed out on. It was a very bad combination..

bye ten rod rd.. hello central st

times keep a moving  soon the tough winters were too tough so we moved to town ,42 central st.What a different setting ,a big new englander with a huge porch  never had i lived anywhere like this .4 floors cellar 1st 2nd and full  attic  lots of space to keep stuff and that we did. This home would see many many changes in our life. watching children come and go, feeding strangers and the poor in spirit and caring for the downtrodden and infirm ..the ride is just beginning .On ten rod rd i asked the Lord to let me serve his answer was not yet ,when its time Ill bring them to you..........

life was good..God was there

So living in the woods of Farmington proved very difficult  The only sorce of heat we had was wood and it was winter..but the trees were still standing we didnt know you had to cut and dry before you burn!,Thats where some God sightings started for us ,not sure what Gary saw them as but I know it was God.He started by bringing Ken and Jeannine Farnan into our life..I cant tell you how many times they showed up with wood and food..We would not have made it ,if not for their obedience to God.They started teaching me about becoming a good wife and mother,told me things I didnt know,watched our children when we needed it and showed me what this word CHRISTIAN meant.  I felt a very heavy calling at that time of my life to take the winter off from working at the hospital Gary worked 2nd shift and I was home with my 2 children 2 and 4 with no car in the evenings.But it was the time of newness of growing of peace like i never knew before and I never really knew since.My friend Linda and I would have long conversations on the phone after the kids were in bed ..talking about life about our future,our feelings ..it was good  even in its worst times God was there. I attended a small little church at UNH  Durham Evangelical  before it had a building I learned the goodness of God there. like I said life was good,,,,